MS Mom

Today was the start of school for both kids. This is excellent is so many ways!they are both reasonably excited about it. Me not so much. It meant facing big groups of people without a disabled parking permit (fuck why did I left that lapse?) and with my walker. That means lots and lots of looks of not questions. I'm feeling way too raw and vulnerable for that atm. I have no idea how one answers this looks and was wishing I had a shirt that said something like 'this is ms'  or 'this is what ms may look like'  or something along those lines. The kids part when really smoothly and I managed to organize raiser drop off with Aidan's daycare people so that will be extremely helpful! I'm at work and am totally unable to say even hours into it if I'm able to do this! It's exhausting and is an emotional roller coaster ranging from I'm strong I've got this to (more often) OMG was I thinking and there's no way I can do this! I see the neurologist...

I've been thinking a lot about why my parenting style is the way it is and what my style is. I follow a number of creative educators on facebook who inspire me to allow my son more fee play but my core instincts and my child's personality had already brought me to may of these philosophies. I was reading about baby lead weaning or in my opinion better named baby led feeding and I love this idea and though I didn't know this is what we were doing this is what we did with Aidan. It's another example of how much my son has taught me. When I'm listening he really does communicate what his needs and preferences are. He began doing this so early that I couldn't help but acknowledged and respect those needs and wishes. Anyways we did purees for his first few reall food experiences- none of the cereals as we had already ruled them out as being to gross and empty of nutrients. but Aidan had been watching us eat and started grabbing at the spoon and trying to feed himse...

So Aidan is really getting the hang of his balance bike now! So amazing to watch what a few months of physical development can do.

Ack! Ever have one of those moments where your fingers respond faster than your brain? That was me tonight I deleted a whole bunch of amazing pics of Aidan and 2 videos as well! Sigh I was so looking forward to blogging about them. I can still describe the but it's not the same without the pics and video :( Today we made our own playdough- best recipe to date. I think this will be my go-to recipe until I find a new one to try. Ingredients: 1Cup Flour 1 Cup Water 1/4 Cups Salt 2 tsp Cream of tartar 1Tbsp Vegetable oil 1 package of Kool aid or food colouring- we added sparkles last time and that was a fun addition!  Mix everything together in a big pot (I recommend a wooden spoon as it seemed to work much better than the plastic one). Once it is smooth (or close to it) put burner on medium and stir. Keep stirring until your dough forms a nice ball. This part seems to very for me every time but if I under cook it and it's still sticky I just add flour when I knead the d...

Today was a friends day. We had a play date arranged but it had to be pushed back due to a unscheduled nap. So Aidan I took off to our favorite breastfeeding support group. I've been going there for two years and amazingly (to me anyways) still miss it when I'm not there. So much knowledge that I received there that I still feel I haven't even begun to give back. The amount of love I feel for the lady who runs it over flowed today and for the first time I told her I loved her. Amazing! I surprised myself but there it is. Love is developed and so often hidden. Later my son hugged a stranger and all could think was yep I guess he's just like me. Man I'm proud my son is a people lover. I didn't know I was until he reflected it back at me. The depth of the lessons my son teaches me are beyond incredible. Parenthood has pushed me in ways I never expected. So much change is often hard but, I believe, totally worth it!