MS Mom

Today was the start of school for both kids. This is excellent is so many ways!they are both reasonably excited about it. Me not so much. It meant facing big groups of people without a disabled parking permit (fuck why did I left that lapse?) and with my walker. That means lots and lots of looks of not questions. I'm feeling way too raw and vulnerable for that atm. I have no idea how one answers this looks and was wishing I had a shirt that said something like 'this is ms'  or 'this is what ms may look like'  or something along those lines. The kids part when really smoothly and I managed to organize raiser drop off with Aidan's daycare people so that will be extremely helpful! I'm at work and am totally unable to say even hours into it if I'm able to do this! It's exhausting and is an emotional roller coaster ranging from I'm strong I've got this to (more often) OMG was I thinking and there's no way I can do this! I see the neurologist...

I haven't written in a few days because I really feel like I should have something new or interesting or at least something different to post about but I really don't. I'm so blessed to have so many wonderful friends and family members. My friends and my mom have been taking Aidan out which has allowed me time to look after myself. I have been seeing a massage therapist who has helped me get my pain under control a bit more - Such a huge relief! I've also taken a few more naps which seems to help keep me going all day without as much pain also. It's funny though because I do feel like I'm missing out I mean don't get me wrong I like alone time as much as the next person (dare I say even more than some) ut it does feel strange to be without Aidan as he and I are always together. I miss family days on weekends and taking Aidan to the park. Maybe once it warms a bit I'll be able to go to the park even if this relapse lasts. Currently the cold weather caus...